Healing Update from a Wombtwin Using NET and Holotropic Breathwork

Please read this illuminating update from the life of a womb twin survivor from Oregon. He is an adult male who, after years of healing, identified that he lost a male identical twin named Eddie Laughing Wolf. He has been on an intense womb twin healing journey committed to Holotropic Breathwork and NET (Neuro Emotional Technique) - the two best modalities for this type of work, in my opinion - and here shares some insights into that, as well as how he's integrating this into his life, using ritual and symbolism, toward greater wholeness and happiness. What a relief that there is relief with understanding! Please enjoy his story... The biggest daily life happening was that I got married (second try!). Ceremony and all the celebrations with family and friends really went well. Well before the ceremony I had set the intention of recognizing Eddie somehow in the ceremony...the challenge was how to do that without opening a can of worms with family, etc. What ended up transpiring was that we had an outdoor wedding (in a lovely botanical garden) with tables and chairs for most of the guests, and then about 20-30 chairs front and center for close family and participants in the ceremony. Wouldn't you know it that even with "assigned seating" in the front rows, one of the seats went unclaimed (my new step-granddaughter chose to sit with her cousin a couple of rows back instead of with her father) so one of the seats closest to me ended up open. Just right for Eddie! Much of what has transpired over the last few months has had that kind of magic/coincidence associated with it...a combination of intentional effort and letting go of results, and sure enough...things turn out even better than I could have planned. Shortly after the wedding I planned a ceremony at our house to release Eddie, inviting my wife and the members of my men's group (5 men, with whom I have shared a good deal about the journey of discovering and relating with Eddie over the last 1.5 years). We held the ceremony with a large altar decorated with pictures of my (our) family, various sacred objects, and numerous wolf pictures and images. We gathered around a fire, and part way through the ceremony we placed a wolf candle (actually two wolves, one larger and one smaller) into the fire, allowing it to melt. Once the fire had melted it, we took the remains and buried it. although there was much more to the ceremony (including some sacred laughter yoga and joke telling, since Eddie's full name is "Eddie Laughing Wolf", after all. It was a wonderful way to let go of him on many levels, and celebrate the people I do have in my intimate circle now. All along the NET sessions have continued, the vast majority of which have focused on Eddie and/or the time in the womb. There have been some sessions that have brought events from later in life up (age 6 sickness, age 11 bicycling and swimming failures, age 13 abandonment when brother went off to college), most have found root cause in months 2 to 4 of pregnancy. From months 2 and 3 were strong feels of impending sadness and loss...coinciding with two very close friends leaving the place I work. From month 4 the anger at being left behind...needing to take my life back and truly live it. My most recent session today tied feelings of loss with feelings of guilt, all centered around 3 months in the womb (when Eddie was reabsorbed). Today's message was that it was not my fault, and I'm truly free to live. Common themes that are being reinforced by other aspects of my life as well. I've continued the Holotropic Breathwork as well, doing another week long session in Taos in August. We each breathed twice, and my first session was a profound affirmation of coming to a good place with Eddie...I had many images of him, including the clear awareness that his last name ("Wolf") has a direct relationship to my spirit name I was given in a vision years ago, which is "Flowing Streams". His last name backwards is the start of my spirit name (wolf/flow). Yes another sign that it is time to walk fully into what we were both sent here for, but that only I chose to stay on this plane to accomplish. And so I walk further into who I'm discovering myself to be. Doors are opening into a clear transition to a healthier and happier place in my life...through NET, Breathwork (I breathe in Seattle tomorrow), astrology (am studying this in detail and it has been very helpful), and career (no question I'm heading toward some type of healing/mentoring work, which I think multiple birth work is part of). I don't know how it all comes together, but the sensing that closing the chapters of grief and anger and guilt around Eddie (or at least turning some significant pages if not closing those chapters entirely) are opening me to much more of the possibilties of life. And that feels really good. So I'm working hard at it, but it hardly feels like work. And I'm being supported by events and happenings as we go. It would take much longer to go into detail, but this gives a pretty good overview, I think.