Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Jo Shares Her Story

Yesterday, I sent out a newsletter to all our associate members with a press release of the international womb twin conference coming in October. As a result of the newsletter, I've made a new friend with one of our blog followers/associates. We have emailed since then, and Jo has given me permission to post her story on our blog. I share it with you now, and invite you to add a comment to the post. Jo so eagerly seeks to learn of other's experiences that might help her make sense of her own. Here it is, in her own words.

Hello Sylvia !!!!! I do want to chat....that sounds  wonderful .......so here I am.......
I am really immersed   currently in the mystery of my twin sister Joy as I mentioned earlier  because August 27th will be our 52nd birthday. Joy was adsorbed into me.  (Fetus in Fetu as a teratoma). She was with me until my 30th year. They  discovered her then and had to remove her because she was growing from the  pregnancy hormones from my two girls (two separate births..Lauren is now 26  and Carolyn is now 23).  I did not know she was my twin until 2008, my  50th birthday. The medical world told me it was a tumor. I saw a wonderful  energy therapist and she confirmed what I felt I always knew, it was NOT a  tumor, it was my sister, her name is Joy and she was  my identical twin  sister.

Then I found Althea and wombtwin.com  and it has taken me these two years to process and think and decide and  become brave about delving in to what it all means to me to have a twin  sister I have never physically seen. And what it means to be the twin that  survived.

At first, when I found out, I was  ecstatic to know I was not crazy. So much of my life made so much more sense  in light of the discovery of Joy.

Now I seem to be super sad and I miss  her ALOT. I want to talk to her. Why did she leave me?
I wish she was  here.

I am starting to ask some of the questions I was not ready to ask  two years ago.

I really struggle with knowing she was  inside of me for 30 years and then had to be scraped out by surgeons. I sort  of feel responsible for her death---sort of like in order to save me they  had to kill her. Not long after the surgery to deal with her  removal  back in 1989 I plunged into major depression. I finally received treatment  in 1995. Since then I have learned so so so so so much. Yet I feel I have so  so so so so much more TO learn.

What have you read in terms of books or  articles?

I am reading UNTWINNED at the moment and found a new book on  amazon.com today by a Dr. Babcock entitled   My Twin Vanished? Did  Yours?

I feel like SCREAMING into the computer screen to this  Dr.  Babcock guy and saying   YES,,  YES YES YES    I  LOST MY TWIN TOOOOOOO   SO WHAT DO WE DO ABOUT IT NOW  ??????????
So many new feelings  ?????????????????????????????????

Thank you for offering your help. I  need it.

***

To our followers: Please feel free to send me your story and I will be happy to post it on the blog, but only with your permission.

If you are not a WTS, but have questions you'd like to ask, please feel free to do so in the comment section, or email us. We're here for you

10 comments:

  1. Such a powerful story, Jo. Thanks so much for sharing with the group. I know it will mean a lot to others as they read.

    Best,

    Sylvia Dickey Smith

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  2. Thank you Sylvia....XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  3. Hi Jo,
    Thanks for sharing your amazing story! We both discovered our "absorbed others" in 2008 - that is the year I met Althea and found out I was not only a twin but a triplet & quadruplet too! My twin was born then died a day later but had extra digits which meant she absorbed someone. I am an identical, not a fraternal, so I must've absorbed someone too (mo-mo). I have struggled with letting go of the one I absorbed and am intrigued by your story that yours was taken from you surgically.

    I have to say I am a bit envious!! (bet you never thought you'd hear that one)...
    Last summer I had a cyst and secretly hoped they would find "her" so that I could have such a catharsis with teeth and nails in it, as they always say...but no such luck, it went away all on its own.

    Do you feel emptiness where she once remained in you? How did you feel emotionally when she was inside of you? I would love to discuss more in depth the physical effects as I struggle with mild ones myself. The wonderful thing about your story is that there is closure and I hope you can see it that way. You know where & what she was, named her and had a surgical funeral so to speak.

    Regarding your survival guilt about "in order to save me they had to kill her"...I can see how you would internalize it that way having gone thru that painful surgery (which not only sent you into depression but grief, let's be honest), but I would like to clarify that this statement doesn't seem accurate according to the details you have provided. Noone killed her so you could live. I am going to say that twice, NOONE KILLER HER SO YOU COULD LIVE!

    It seems more like "she couldn't survive for whatever reasons so her body found refuge in mine but when it interfered with my health she could no longer reside there. Even though her soul had passed long ago, it became necessary for her remains to removed so that I could reclaim my body and be a healthy self"

    You are not responsible for her death - and she passed over long before the surgery, you got confused about that because you were keeping her memory alive in you and rightly so when she was literally still in you and quite unresolved - but perhaps your healing will come from exploring why you think you are responsible. What is your womb story before and during death and when exactly did she get absorbed, do you know?

    After all, it is just the way it was. You were an innocent baby getting what you got, just as she was, and this is just how things lined up.

    In time I hope you will be able to fill up that empty place where Joy was with your own kind of Joy - after all you did survive and you are here to live your life! Hooray for strong womb twin survivors!!

    On that note, welcome to the blog and thanks for sharing your story! Looking forward to more...

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  4. Hi Monica....SOOOOOOO looking forward to skyping this evening.

    XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  5. Hello ALL
    MONICA
    LOVED LOVED LOVED our skype session
    Had a GREAT dream....I typed it from my gmail address and sent it so does that mean it will go on the blog?
    Bossy JOY told me to bury my favorite ring in my Zen garden and after our talk I took it back out and washed it and claimed it back. I believe I have taken care of Joy for so long that now it is time for JOY to take care of ME.
    I have called Dr Amy Richard, D.C. and left a message to set up an appointment for NET today if she has room.
    I love Joy and will never be without her but she really does need to take her proper beta place in my life now.
    I am tired of the blockage of my solar plexus..
    I am ready for my energy in my body to be balanced......
    Keep you posted
    And would love to do another skype again after I get in touch with Amy Richards and do the NET therapy. That feels peacefully correct as the next step for me. I am going to let my life unfold in its time and not mine.
    If something happens by August 27 okay if not I get another one next year.
    I am going to let God and the energy flow guide me and I am going to not force my own agenda . I am going to give control to God and not Joy and not me. And trust I will be led in the time and path I need.
    Looking forward to where this river of my life leads me next.
    ALSO I need order and print THE HEALING PATH by Althea and will start reading it today.

    LOVE AND HUGS to all of us who share the most interesting bond I have ever experienced...

    Love XOXOXOXOXO, JO

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  6. OOOOOPPPPSSS....I meant to say I DID order THE HEALING PATH and will start reading it...AND here is the dream from last night...
    I went into a new classroom as a new student after the school year started. The teacher beat the students with a newspaper. I went to her at the end of the school day and told her how wrong and awful that was and told her I was leaving her classroom. I DID.
    I found another school and that teacher accepted and loved me for ME and taught me in my learning style and I flourished. Then I went back to the FIRST teacher to visit and tell her I wanted to share with her that I knew she was a good person and I wondered how happy she really was beating children like that. I found out later in the dream when I went back to visit again that the mean teacher had quit and found a new and more enjoyable job and that hitting students was no longer allowed at the school.

    Interesting......
    Comment away lovely ones
    Your thoughts and ideas are always welcomed
    Love YOU ALL very very much

    XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  7. Hey Monica and all wombtwin friends and fam !!! I found a NET(Neuro Emotional Technique practitioner Amy Richard, D. C., Her practice is called Gentle Chiropractic (that sounds so healing ....AAAAHHHHHH ) and called the office just now ....had to leave a message so will now wait for them to call me back to set up an appointment.
    ALSO....had a GREAT dream last night. I was back in classroom and the teacher was VERY strict. She used a newspaper to hit students. So in the dream I went to the teacher at the end of the school day and told her I was leaving her classroom because the treatment of children in that way was wrong and she knew it. I walked out and felt so confident and content. I enrolled myself in my school choice the next day and found another teacher who honored my spirit and taught me in a way he someone intuited was my style of learning. I felt so strong and affirmed as SELF in the dream. I went back to the FIRST classroom to visit at some point in the dream and talked to the teacher again that was hurting children and told her she knew she did not want to hurt people like that anymore. She was so kind to me and I found out later in the dream she had resigned to find a new job. INTERESTING DREAM.

    Monica, Ken and I had a GREAT conversation after we finished our skype visit. THAT WAS AMAZING by the way.....I would love to schedule another one after I have been able to connect with Amy Richards and experience NET and talk to you and process some more if that would be something you would be interested in tooo??????

    I slept GREAT last night and I really love my dream. I think I am more comfortable with standing on my own then I believe. AND...this is cool, too, Monica and everyone......Monica and I were discussing how BOSSY my wombtwin JOY seemed to be yesterday. I have been taking care of her first instead of me since the womb.....I love Joy...However, the time has come for the tables to be turned....IT IS NOW TIME FOR JOY TO TAKE CARE OF JOSEPHINE......I like that. I took back a ring she told me to give away yesterday. I put it in my Zen garden and after our conversation, Monica, I went and took it back out because I love that ring. I claimed my own self hood and did not let Joy tell me what to do. WOOT HOOT....

    Love to all and Love to all of our wombtwins from whom we learn and love and grow AMEN

    Love, XOXOXOXOX, Jo

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  8. Hey Monica and all wombtwin friends and fam !!! I found a NET(Neuro Emotional Technique practitioner Amy Richard, D. C., Her practice is called Gentle Chiropractic (that sounds so healing ....AAAAHHHHHH ) and called the office just now ....had to leave a message so will now wait for them to call me back to set up an appointment.
    ALSO....had a GREAT dream last night. I was back in classroom and the teacher was VERY strict. She used a newspaper to hit students. So in the dream I went to the teacher at the end of the school day and told her I was leaving her classroom because the treatment of children in that way was wrong and she knew it. I walked out and felt so confident and content. I enrolled myself in my school choice the next day and found another teacher who honored my spirit and taught me in a way he someone intuited was my style of learning. I felt so strong and affirmed as SELF in the dream. I went back to the FIRST classroom to visit at some point in the dream and talked to the teacher again that was hurting children and told her she knew she did not want to hurt people like that anymore. She was so kind to me and I found out later in the dream she had resigned to find a new job. INTERESTING DREAM.

    Monica, Ken and I had a GREAT conversation after we finished our skype visit. THAT WAS AMAZING by the way.....I would love to schedule another one after I have been able to connect with Amy Richards and experience NET and talk to you and process some more if that would be something you would be interested in tooo??????

    I slept GREAT last night and I really love my dream. I think I am more comfortable with standing on my own then I believe. AND...this is cool, too, Monica and everyone......Monica and I were discussing how BOSSY my wombtwin JOY seemed to be yesterday. I have been taking care of her first instead of me since the womb.....I love Joy...However, the time has come for the tables to be turned....IT IS NOW TIME FOR JOY TO TAKE CARE OF JOSEPHINE......I like that. I took back a ring she told me to give away yesterday. I put it in my Zen garden and after our conversation, Monica, I went and took it back out because I love that ring. I claimed my own self hood and did not let Joy tell me what to do. WOOT HOOT....

    Love to all and Love to all of our wombtwins from whom we learn and love and grow AMEN

    Love, XOXOXOXOX, Jo

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  9. THE MONTH OF AUGUST whenever you want to.

    USING REIKI with WOMBTWIN GOODBYES

    Hello from JO! My name is Josephine Ludwig. My wombtwin is Joy Elizabeth Sarah Appelbaum. She was absorbed into my body as a teratoma and surgically removed on April 5, 1989. THAT made for a horrid memory of a funeral for my sister. I have been "percolating" in the world of my wombtwin and very confused for a long time. I had my teratoma confirmed as a wombtwin in 2008. (on the exact date of my 50th birthday...August 27, 2008) Since then I have baptized her, bought both of us toys and treasures, and been completely obsessed with her.
    Sunday, August 8, 2010, I taught my first Reiki Level One class. As with all things, when I teach, I learn the most. Joy spoke to me after I asked my co-teacher who has psychic abilities to talk to Joy for me. I was told three things:
    I Love you
    I have always been with you
    I would like Mint ice cream for my birthday.
    What happened for me is that I broke loose tears from a long time waiting.
    After Sunday, and the new release of grief, I connected immediately BACK to my homeground with wombtwin.com. I started blogging on the wombtwin USA site and had the complete HONOR of talking to Monica Hudson over skype.
    (that conversation was yesterday, August 9, 2010).
    TODAY, August 10, 2010, one of my adopted daughters was attempting to give birth. She ran into complications and the family engaged me as a prayer warrior. I did pray and I also asked permission to do distance Reiki.
    HERE COMES MY MIRACLE:

    As I was praying for Ashley and her C-Section birthing of Camryn Alivia Whitehead, I felt called to image my opening up of my own of my abdomen where Joy, my wombtwin, resided for 30 years with me. As I continued to send Reiki to Ashley I too received a blessing. I felt my abdomen shrink into nothing and where my midsection scar remains from my surgery in 1989 feels like it is sunken in tissue and all shriveled up on either side of the scar. Joy is free, she is not mad at me for letting her go and I am going to just sit with this new event to see where it takes me.

    Reiki seems yet another wonderful tool to help us heal and deal and feel our wombtwin world.

    Submitted with love, respect, humility and intense gratefulness.
    Goodbye JOY, from my abdomen and HELLO JOY to my world of memorial.

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  10. Such great work Jo - I am calling you right now...! Thanks for all the posts, it's helpful for you to post your process for others to witness. We have all been there...what a pleasure working with you when you work so hard.

    That teacher is clearly Joy with her bossy newspaper! Intereting how she could leave once you were able to release her...hmmm. A quote from a guru friend of mine comes to mind:

    "The grace can't take it from you if you're holding it with a clenched fist"

    You are really surrendering now...fantastic!
    When we get out of the way the healing can come through...

    Love,
    Monica

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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Jo Shares Her Story

Yesterday, I sent out a newsletter to all our associate members with a press release of the international womb twin conference coming in October. As a result of the newsletter, I've made a new friend with one of our blog followers/associates. We have emailed since then, and Jo has given me permission to post her story on our blog. I share it with you now, and invite you to add a comment to the post. Jo so eagerly seeks to learn of other's experiences that might help her make sense of her own. Here it is, in her own words.

Hello Sylvia !!!!! I do want to chat....that sounds  wonderful .......so here I am.......
I am really immersed   currently in the mystery of my twin sister Joy as I mentioned earlier  because August 27th will be our 52nd birthday. Joy was adsorbed into me.  (Fetus in Fetu as a teratoma). She was with me until my 30th year. They  discovered her then and had to remove her because she was growing from the  pregnancy hormones from my two girls (two separate births..Lauren is now 26  and Carolyn is now 23).  I did not know she was my twin until 2008, my  50th birthday. The medical world told me it was a tumor. I saw a wonderful  energy therapist and she confirmed what I felt I always knew, it was NOT a  tumor, it was my sister, her name is Joy and she was  my identical twin  sister.

Then I found Althea and wombtwin.com  and it has taken me these two years to process and think and decide and  become brave about delving in to what it all means to me to have a twin  sister I have never physically seen. And what it means to be the twin that  survived.

At first, when I found out, I was  ecstatic to know I was not crazy. So much of my life made so much more sense  in light of the discovery of Joy.

Now I seem to be super sad and I miss  her ALOT. I want to talk to her. Why did she leave me?
I wish she was  here.

I am starting to ask some of the questions I was not ready to ask  two years ago.

I really struggle with knowing she was  inside of me for 30 years and then had to be scraped out by surgeons. I sort  of feel responsible for her death---sort of like in order to save me they  had to kill her. Not long after the surgery to deal with her  removal  back in 1989 I plunged into major depression. I finally received treatment  in 1995. Since then I have learned so so so so so much. Yet I feel I have so  so so so so much more TO learn.

What have you read in terms of books or  articles?

I am reading UNTWINNED at the moment and found a new book on  amazon.com today by a Dr. Babcock entitled   My Twin Vanished? Did  Yours?

I feel like SCREAMING into the computer screen to this  Dr.  Babcock guy and saying   YES,,  YES YES YES    I  LOST MY TWIN TOOOOOOO   SO WHAT DO WE DO ABOUT IT NOW  ??????????
So many new feelings  ?????????????????????????????????

Thank you for offering your help. I  need it.

***

To our followers: Please feel free to send me your story and I will be happy to post it on the blog, but only with your permission.

If you are not a WTS, but have questions you'd like to ask, please feel free to do so in the comment section, or email us. We're here for you

10 comments:

  1. Such a powerful story, Jo. Thanks so much for sharing with the group. I know it will mean a lot to others as they read.

    Best,

    Sylvia Dickey Smith

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  2. Thank you Sylvia....XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  3. Hi Jo,
    Thanks for sharing your amazing story! We both discovered our "absorbed others" in 2008 - that is the year I met Althea and found out I was not only a twin but a triplet & quadruplet too! My twin was born then died a day later but had extra digits which meant she absorbed someone. I am an identical, not a fraternal, so I must've absorbed someone too (mo-mo). I have struggled with letting go of the one I absorbed and am intrigued by your story that yours was taken from you surgically.

    I have to say I am a bit envious!! (bet you never thought you'd hear that one)...
    Last summer I had a cyst and secretly hoped they would find "her" so that I could have such a catharsis with teeth and nails in it, as they always say...but no such luck, it went away all on its own.

    Do you feel emptiness where she once remained in you? How did you feel emotionally when she was inside of you? I would love to discuss more in depth the physical effects as I struggle with mild ones myself. The wonderful thing about your story is that there is closure and I hope you can see it that way. You know where & what she was, named her and had a surgical funeral so to speak.

    Regarding your survival guilt about "in order to save me they had to kill her"...I can see how you would internalize it that way having gone thru that painful surgery (which not only sent you into depression but grief, let's be honest), but I would like to clarify that this statement doesn't seem accurate according to the details you have provided. Noone killed her so you could live. I am going to say that twice, NOONE KILLER HER SO YOU COULD LIVE!

    It seems more like "she couldn't survive for whatever reasons so her body found refuge in mine but when it interfered with my health she could no longer reside there. Even though her soul had passed long ago, it became necessary for her remains to removed so that I could reclaim my body and be a healthy self"

    You are not responsible for her death - and she passed over long before the surgery, you got confused about that because you were keeping her memory alive in you and rightly so when she was literally still in you and quite unresolved - but perhaps your healing will come from exploring why you think you are responsible. What is your womb story before and during death and when exactly did she get absorbed, do you know?

    After all, it is just the way it was. You were an innocent baby getting what you got, just as she was, and this is just how things lined up.

    In time I hope you will be able to fill up that empty place where Joy was with your own kind of Joy - after all you did survive and you are here to live your life! Hooray for strong womb twin survivors!!

    On that note, welcome to the blog and thanks for sharing your story! Looking forward to more...

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  4. Hi Monica....SOOOOOOO looking forward to skyping this evening.

    XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  5. Hello ALL
    MONICA
    LOVED LOVED LOVED our skype session
    Had a GREAT dream....I typed it from my gmail address and sent it so does that mean it will go on the blog?
    Bossy JOY told me to bury my favorite ring in my Zen garden and after our talk I took it back out and washed it and claimed it back. I believe I have taken care of Joy for so long that now it is time for JOY to take care of ME.
    I have called Dr Amy Richard, D.C. and left a message to set up an appointment for NET today if she has room.
    I love Joy and will never be without her but she really does need to take her proper beta place in my life now.
    I am tired of the blockage of my solar plexus..
    I am ready for my energy in my body to be balanced......
    Keep you posted
    And would love to do another skype again after I get in touch with Amy Richards and do the NET therapy. That feels peacefully correct as the next step for me. I am going to let my life unfold in its time and not mine.
    If something happens by August 27 okay if not I get another one next year.
    I am going to let God and the energy flow guide me and I am going to not force my own agenda . I am going to give control to God and not Joy and not me. And trust I will be led in the time and path I need.
    Looking forward to where this river of my life leads me next.
    ALSO I need order and print THE HEALING PATH by Althea and will start reading it today.

    LOVE AND HUGS to all of us who share the most interesting bond I have ever experienced...

    Love XOXOXOXOXO, JO

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  6. OOOOOPPPPSSS....I meant to say I DID order THE HEALING PATH and will start reading it...AND here is the dream from last night...
    I went into a new classroom as a new student after the school year started. The teacher beat the students with a newspaper. I went to her at the end of the school day and told her how wrong and awful that was and told her I was leaving her classroom. I DID.
    I found another school and that teacher accepted and loved me for ME and taught me in my learning style and I flourished. Then I went back to the FIRST teacher to visit and tell her I wanted to share with her that I knew she was a good person and I wondered how happy she really was beating children like that. I found out later in the dream when I went back to visit again that the mean teacher had quit and found a new and more enjoyable job and that hitting students was no longer allowed at the school.

    Interesting......
    Comment away lovely ones
    Your thoughts and ideas are always welcomed
    Love YOU ALL very very much

    XOXOXOXOX, JO

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  7. Hey Monica and all wombtwin friends and fam !!! I found a NET(Neuro Emotional Technique practitioner Amy Richard, D. C., Her practice is called Gentle Chiropractic (that sounds so healing ....AAAAHHHHHH ) and called the office just now ....had to leave a message so will now wait for them to call me back to set up an appointment.
    ALSO....had a GREAT dream last night. I was back in classroom and the teacher was VERY strict. She used a newspaper to hit students. So in the dream I went to the teacher at the end of the school day and told her I was leaving her classroom because the treatment of children in that way was wrong and she knew it. I walked out and felt so confident and content. I enrolled myself in my school choice the next day and found another teacher who honored my spirit and taught me in a way he someone intuited was my style of learning. I felt so strong and affirmed as SELF in the dream. I went back to the FIRST classroom to visit at some point in the dream and talked to the teacher again that was hurting children and told her she knew she did not want to hurt people like that anymore. She was so kind to me and I found out later in the dream she had resigned to find a new job. INTERESTING DREAM.

    Monica, Ken and I had a GREAT conversation after we finished our skype visit. THAT WAS AMAZING by the way.....I would love to schedule another one after I have been able to connect with Amy Richards and experience NET and talk to you and process some more if that would be something you would be interested in tooo??????

    I slept GREAT last night and I really love my dream. I think I am more comfortable with standing on my own then I believe. AND...this is cool, too, Monica and everyone......Monica and I were discussing how BOSSY my wombtwin JOY seemed to be yesterday. I have been taking care of her first instead of me since the womb.....I love Joy...However, the time has come for the tables to be turned....IT IS NOW TIME FOR JOY TO TAKE CARE OF JOSEPHINE......I like that. I took back a ring she told me to give away yesterday. I put it in my Zen garden and after our conversation, Monica, I went and took it back out because I love that ring. I claimed my own self hood and did not let Joy tell me what to do. WOOT HOOT....

    Love to all and Love to all of our wombtwins from whom we learn and love and grow AMEN

    Love, XOXOXOXOX, Jo

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  8. Hey Monica and all wombtwin friends and fam !!! I found a NET(Neuro Emotional Technique practitioner Amy Richard, D. C., Her practice is called Gentle Chiropractic (that sounds so healing ....AAAAHHHHHH ) and called the office just now ....had to leave a message so will now wait for them to call me back to set up an appointment.
    ALSO....had a GREAT dream last night. I was back in classroom and the teacher was VERY strict. She used a newspaper to hit students. So in the dream I went to the teacher at the end of the school day and told her I was leaving her classroom because the treatment of children in that way was wrong and she knew it. I walked out and felt so confident and content. I enrolled myself in my school choice the next day and found another teacher who honored my spirit and taught me in a way he someone intuited was my style of learning. I felt so strong and affirmed as SELF in the dream. I went back to the FIRST classroom to visit at some point in the dream and talked to the teacher again that was hurting children and told her she knew she did not want to hurt people like that anymore. She was so kind to me and I found out later in the dream she had resigned to find a new job. INTERESTING DREAM.

    Monica, Ken and I had a GREAT conversation after we finished our skype visit. THAT WAS AMAZING by the way.....I would love to schedule another one after I have been able to connect with Amy Richards and experience NET and talk to you and process some more if that would be something you would be interested in tooo??????

    I slept GREAT last night and I really love my dream. I think I am more comfortable with standing on my own then I believe. AND...this is cool, too, Monica and everyone......Monica and I were discussing how BOSSY my wombtwin JOY seemed to be yesterday. I have been taking care of her first instead of me since the womb.....I love Joy...However, the time has come for the tables to be turned....IT IS NOW TIME FOR JOY TO TAKE CARE OF JOSEPHINE......I like that. I took back a ring she told me to give away yesterday. I put it in my Zen garden and after our conversation, Monica, I went and took it back out because I love that ring. I claimed my own self hood and did not let Joy tell me what to do. WOOT HOOT....

    Love to all and Love to all of our wombtwins from whom we learn and love and grow AMEN

    Love, XOXOXOXOX, Jo

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  9. THE MONTH OF AUGUST whenever you want to.

    USING REIKI with WOMBTWIN GOODBYES

    Hello from JO! My name is Josephine Ludwig. My wombtwin is Joy Elizabeth Sarah Appelbaum. She was absorbed into my body as a teratoma and surgically removed on April 5, 1989. THAT made for a horrid memory of a funeral for my sister. I have been "percolating" in the world of my wombtwin and very confused for a long time. I had my teratoma confirmed as a wombtwin in 2008. (on the exact date of my 50th birthday...August 27, 2008) Since then I have baptized her, bought both of us toys and treasures, and been completely obsessed with her.
    Sunday, August 8, 2010, I taught my first Reiki Level One class. As with all things, when I teach, I learn the most. Joy spoke to me after I asked my co-teacher who has psychic abilities to talk to Joy for me. I was told three things:
    I Love you
    I have always been with you
    I would like Mint ice cream for my birthday.
    What happened for me is that I broke loose tears from a long time waiting.
    After Sunday, and the new release of grief, I connected immediately BACK to my homeground with wombtwin.com. I started blogging on the wombtwin USA site and had the complete HONOR of talking to Monica Hudson over skype.
    (that conversation was yesterday, August 9, 2010).
    TODAY, August 10, 2010, one of my adopted daughters was attempting to give birth. She ran into complications and the family engaged me as a prayer warrior. I did pray and I also asked permission to do distance Reiki.
    HERE COMES MY MIRACLE:

    As I was praying for Ashley and her C-Section birthing of Camryn Alivia Whitehead, I felt called to image my opening up of my own of my abdomen where Joy, my wombtwin, resided for 30 years with me. As I continued to send Reiki to Ashley I too received a blessing. I felt my abdomen shrink into nothing and where my midsection scar remains from my surgery in 1989 feels like it is sunken in tissue and all shriveled up on either side of the scar. Joy is free, she is not mad at me for letting her go and I am going to just sit with this new event to see where it takes me.

    Reiki seems yet another wonderful tool to help us heal and deal and feel our wombtwin world.

    Submitted with love, respect, humility and intense gratefulness.
    Goodbye JOY, from my abdomen and HELLO JOY to my world of memorial.

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  10. Such great work Jo - I am calling you right now...! Thanks for all the posts, it's helpful for you to post your process for others to witness. We have all been there...what a pleasure working with you when you work so hard.

    That teacher is clearly Joy with her bossy newspaper! Intereting how she could leave once you were able to release her...hmmm. A quote from a guru friend of mine comes to mind:

    "The grace can't take it from you if you're holding it with a clenched fist"

    You are really surrendering now...fantastic!
    When we get out of the way the healing can come through...

    Love,
    Monica

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