Hello Sylvia !!!!! I do want to chat....that sounds wonderful .......so here I am.......
I am really immersed currently in the mystery of my twin sister Joy as I mentioned earlier because August 27th will be our 52nd birthday. Joy was adsorbed into me. (Fetus in Fetu as a teratoma). She was with me until my 30th year. They discovered her then and had to remove her because she was growing from the pregnancy hormones from my two girls (two separate births..Lauren is now 26 and Carolyn is now 23). I did not know she was my twin until 2008, my 50th birthday. The medical world told me it was a tumor. I saw a wonderful energy therapist and she confirmed what I felt I always knew, it was NOT a tumor, it was my sister, her name is Joy and she was my identical twin sister.
Then I found Althea and wombtwin.com and it has taken me these two years to process and think and decide and become brave about delving in to what it all means to me to have a twin sister I have never physically seen. And what it means to be the twin that survived.
At first, when I found out, I was ecstatic to know I was not crazy. So much of my life made so much more sense in light of the discovery of Joy.
Now I seem to be super sad and I miss her ALOT. I want to talk to her. Why did she leave me?
I wish she was here.
I am starting to ask some of the questions I was not ready to ask two years ago.
I really struggle with knowing she was inside of me for 30 years and then had to be scraped out by surgeons. I sort of feel responsible for her death---sort of like in order to save me they had to kill her. Not long after the surgery to deal with her removal back in 1989 I plunged into major depression. I finally received treatment in 1995. Since then I have learned so so so so so much. Yet I feel I have so so so so so much more TO learn.
What have you read in terms of books or articles?
I am reading UNTWINNED at the moment and found a new book on amazon.com today by a Dr. Babcock entitled My Twin Vanished? Did Yours?
I feel like SCREAMING into the computer screen to this Dr. Babcock guy and saying YES,, YES YES YES I LOST MY TWIN TOOOOOOO SO WHAT DO WE DO ABOUT IT NOW ??????????
So many new feelings ?????????????????????????????????
Thank you for offering your help. I need it.
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