Yesterday I said goodbye to my fraternal boy twin. It was a most amazing spiritual and significant experience--words can't quite do it! Accompanied by amazing Monica, I had THE MOST incredible farewell ceremony for Carl!
I had decided three days earlier that I needed to say goodbye. We were done, it was over, and I was ready to move forward, and rapidly. The night before, I still had no idea how I wanted to say goodbye, but knew there was nothing tangible about him so there was nothing to tear, bury, burn, caress, hold. In the morning we bought lots of very healthy food for my house, to nourish myself, and one nice loaf of bread for Carl ("Old World Bread with Caraway (care-away!) Seeds").
We drove to a beautiful white, sandy beach in Connecticut on Long Island Sound, in perfect weather--sun, a nice breeze, clean white sand and wonderful beachy air. After hours of relaxing, sunbathing and dipping into the water, we decided it was the right time to say goodbye. As I was singing a song I chose in preparation for letting him go, two birds approached our blanket and sat in the sand, waiting. There was no time to finish that perfect song.
They were not going to leave--NOW was the time!
I jumped up, went to the edge of the water, and started throwing bits of bread. All the birds in the area heard about the free food and descended, eating happily as I was saying goodbye to Carl, running and dancing along the shore, laughing, throwing the bread, and watching all the LIFE that came to me as I was saying goodbye! I was nourishing living animals and giving Carl back to nature.
Saying goodbye to one feeble dead being brought huge, happy, appreciative life to me, and even if it was for a short time (until the bread was gone), it was so symbolic of being a magnet for much more life ahead, by letting go of one little life that was keeping me back.
PS Some of the birds lingered with us, sitting and resting on the sand with full tummies!
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Saturday, August 7, 2010
Ceremony: This is for all of us! From Barbara Rosentha
Yesterday I said goodbye to my fraternal boy twin. It was a most amazing spiritual and significant experience--words can't quite do it! Accompanied by amazing Monica, I had THE MOST incredible farewell ceremony for Carl!
I had decided three days earlier that I needed to say goodbye. We were done, it was over, and I was ready to move forward, and rapidly. The night before, I still had no idea how I wanted to say goodbye, but knew there was nothing tangible about him so there was nothing to tear, bury, burn, caress, hold. In the morning we bought lots of very healthy food for my house, to nourish myself, and one nice loaf of bread for Carl ("Old World Bread with Caraway (care-away!) Seeds").
We drove to a beautiful white, sandy beach in Connecticut on Long Island Sound, in perfect weather--sun, a nice breeze, clean white sand and wonderful beachy air. After hours of relaxing, sunbathing and dipping into the water, we decided it was the right time to say goodbye. As I was singing a song I chose in preparation for letting him go, two birds approached our blanket and sat in the sand, waiting. There was no time to finish that perfect song.
They were not going to leave--NOW was the time!
I jumped up, went to the edge of the water, and started throwing bits of bread. All the birds in the area heard about the free food and descended, eating happily as I was saying goodbye to Carl, running and dancing along the shore, laughing, throwing the bread, and watching all the LIFE that came to me as I was saying goodbye! I was nourishing living animals and giving Carl back to nature.
Saying goodbye to one feeble dead being brought huge, happy, appreciative life to me, and even if it was for a short time (until the bread was gone), it was so symbolic of being a magnet for much more life ahead, by letting go of one little life that was keeping me back.
PS Some of the birds lingered with us, sitting and resting on the sand with full tummies!
I had decided three days earlier that I needed to say goodbye. We were done, it was over, and I was ready to move forward, and rapidly. The night before, I still had no idea how I wanted to say goodbye, but knew there was nothing tangible about him so there was nothing to tear, bury, burn, caress, hold. In the morning we bought lots of very healthy food for my house, to nourish myself, and one nice loaf of bread for Carl ("Old World Bread with Caraway (care-away!) Seeds").
We drove to a beautiful white, sandy beach in Connecticut on Long Island Sound, in perfect weather--sun, a nice breeze, clean white sand and wonderful beachy air. After hours of relaxing, sunbathing and dipping into the water, we decided it was the right time to say goodbye. As I was singing a song I chose in preparation for letting him go, two birds approached our blanket and sat in the sand, waiting. There was no time to finish that perfect song.
They were not going to leave--NOW was the time!
I jumped up, went to the edge of the water, and started throwing bits of bread. All the birds in the area heard about the free food and descended, eating happily as I was saying goodbye to Carl, running and dancing along the shore, laughing, throwing the bread, and watching all the LIFE that came to me as I was saying goodbye! I was nourishing living animals and giving Carl back to nature.
Saying goodbye to one feeble dead being brought huge, happy, appreciative life to me, and even if it was for a short time (until the bread was gone), it was so symbolic of being a magnet for much more life ahead, by letting go of one little life that was keeping me back.
PS Some of the birds lingered with us, sitting and resting on the sand with full tummies!
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Oh Barbara, thanks for allowing me to be a part of this sacred ritual! The best part was how it all unfolded just as it was meant to because you didn't overthink it, you got out of the way and let it happen. Still, you were so brave to face this and happy, eager, ready to move forward...what a fun and liberating experience!
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Don't forget one of the funniest parts was when this ritual was jump started when you were singing your song, and got to the words "Help Is On The Way".... when you were loudly interrupted by a megaphone and the "Lifeguard" announcing he was going off duty and that we were now "at our own risk"! Life is just too ironic...you can't make this stuff up...it was like Carl was leaving and you were on your own now, and the seagulls were inching closer eyeing the bread with the "Care-Away" seeds, to take your Carl cares away into their bellies...and they were so happy & fluffed up resting contently as we left.
And you are now so happy and free to live your life without Carl, and all he represented, with just your Carla for awhile until you are ready to let her go too and just BE.
The transformation I have witnessed in you in just about 4 months since discovering Carl and 1 month since discovering Carla in incredible!
What an honor to help you on this journey and witness again how effective Althea's healing path is...looking forward to more!
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Oh Barbara, thanks for allowing me to be a part of this sacred ritual! The best part was how it all unfolded just as it was meant to because you didn't overthink it, you got out of the way and let it happen. Still, you were so brave to face this and happy, eager, ready to move forward...what a fun and liberating experience!
ReplyDeleteDon't forget one of the funniest parts was when this ritual was jump started when you were singing your song, and got to the words "Help Is On The Way".... when you were loudly interrupted by a megaphone and the "Lifeguard" announcing he was going off duty and that we were now "at our own risk"! Life is just too ironic...you can't make this stuff up...it was like Carl was leaving and you were on your own now, and the seagulls were inching closer eyeing the bread with the "Care-Away" seeds, to take your Carl cares away into their bellies...and they were so happy & fluffed up resting contently as we left.
And you are now so happy and free to live your life without Carl, and all he represented, with just your Carla for awhile until you are ready to let her go too and just BE.
The transformation I have witnessed in you in just about 4 months since discovering Carl and 1 month since discovering Carla in incredible!
What an honor to help you on this journey and witness again how effective Althea's healing path is...looking forward to more!