Womb Twin Day is Dec 21. I was born prematurely with my twin on Dec 22, my twin then died Dec 23. This has been an interesting three days!
I am pleased to be at the end of my healing journey and quite shocked at how strong and happy I feel this year at this time - for the first time ever. It feels like I crossed over into living! I feel like a strong self and that allows so much to fall into place, relieving me of so much work I used to have to do just to feel ok. So this year on womb twin day, I chose to honor not just my womb twin but my self too (we're an identical pair after all).
My twin's spirit plays games with me, one of her favorites is to put copper pennies in my path (psychic mediums say spirits can move copper easily because it is the best for conducting electricity - thus the term "pennies from heaven"). Lately, since our birthday time was approaching, pennies have turned up everywhere. I used to pick them up to get close to her but now I don't need to - however, on womb twin day, I did pick one up. I looked closely at it and thought about my twin Jennifer.
Staring at the copper penny, I noticed at the top it said "In God We Trust" and I thought about how trust and truth are so crucial to womb twin survivors. We need truth so badly. Then I noticed the word "Liberty" and I recalled how that word has popped up everywhere I look lately (since I live in NYC where the Statue of Liberty overlooks our harbor). Then I realized why...I feel liberated from the sadness of a confusing womb story because I've explored it and have no more questions and can put it in its rightful place now. (my healing entailed reclaiming & releasing an early triplet & quadruplet, in addition to the twin who died after birth)
On womb twin day I realized I am liberated...I am me...I am truly happy to be alive and live my life. With that, I thanked my twin and reassured her that I am now fine and don't need her assistance any more. I wished her well on her journey and resumed my own. We'll see if she does move on now. At least she knows I'm ok here without her now and that is my womb twin/birthday gift to us.
(I didn't feel a need to honor my triplet & quad on womb twin day because they were lost very early and the pain is resolved)
Today is the day my sweet 2 lb. Jennifer passed away many years ago and I no longer feel sad at all. I TRUST that all lined up just the way it was meant to and am enjoying LIBERTY from pain and loss. What a victory!
Happy Holidays to all you strong, courageous and undeniably special Womb Twin Survivors! I hope you had a meaningful Womb Twin Day and would love to hear about it...
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Thursday, December 23, 2010
A milestone Womb Twin Day 2010 - Healing is Possible!
Womb Twin Day is Dec 21. I was born prematurely with my twin on Dec 22, my twin then died Dec 23. This has been an interesting three days!
I am pleased to be at the end of my healing journey and quite shocked at how strong and happy I feel this year at this time - for the first time ever. It feels like I crossed over into living! I feel like a strong self and that allows so much to fall into place, relieving me of so much work I used to have to do just to feel ok. So this year on womb twin day, I chose to honor not just my womb twin but my self too (we're an identical pair after all).
My twin's spirit plays games with me, one of her favorites is to put copper pennies in my path (psychic mediums say spirits can move copper easily because it is the best for conducting electricity - thus the term "pennies from heaven"). Lately, since our birthday time was approaching, pennies have turned up everywhere. I used to pick them up to get close to her but now I don't need to - however, on womb twin day, I did pick one up. I looked closely at it and thought about my twin Jennifer.
Staring at the copper penny, I noticed at the top it said "In God We Trust" and I thought about how trust and truth are so crucial to womb twin survivors. We need truth so badly. Then I noticed the word "Liberty" and I recalled how that word has popped up everywhere I look lately (since I live in NYC where the Statue of Liberty overlooks our harbor). Then I realized why...I feel liberated from the sadness of a confusing womb story because I've explored it and have no more questions and can put it in its rightful place now. (my healing entailed reclaiming & releasing an early triplet & quadruplet, in addition to the twin who died after birth)
On womb twin day I realized I am liberated...I am me...I am truly happy to be alive and live my life. With that, I thanked my twin and reassured her that I am now fine and don't need her assistance any more. I wished her well on her journey and resumed my own. We'll see if she does move on now. At least she knows I'm ok here without her now and that is my womb twin/birthday gift to us.
(I didn't feel a need to honor my triplet & quad on womb twin day because they were lost very early and the pain is resolved)
Today is the day my sweet 2 lb. Jennifer passed away many years ago and I no longer feel sad at all. I TRUST that all lined up just the way it was meant to and am enjoying LIBERTY from pain and loss. What a victory!
Happy Holidays to all you strong, courageous and undeniably special Womb Twin Survivors! I hope you had a meaningful Womb Twin Day and would love to hear about it...
I am pleased to be at the end of my healing journey and quite shocked at how strong and happy I feel this year at this time - for the first time ever. It feels like I crossed over into living! I feel like a strong self and that allows so much to fall into place, relieving me of so much work I used to have to do just to feel ok. So this year on womb twin day, I chose to honor not just my womb twin but my self too (we're an identical pair after all).
My twin's spirit plays games with me, one of her favorites is to put copper pennies in my path (psychic mediums say spirits can move copper easily because it is the best for conducting electricity - thus the term "pennies from heaven"). Lately, since our birthday time was approaching, pennies have turned up everywhere. I used to pick them up to get close to her but now I don't need to - however, on womb twin day, I did pick one up. I looked closely at it and thought about my twin Jennifer.
Staring at the copper penny, I noticed at the top it said "In God We Trust" and I thought about how trust and truth are so crucial to womb twin survivors. We need truth so badly. Then I noticed the word "Liberty" and I recalled how that word has popped up everywhere I look lately (since I live in NYC where the Statue of Liberty overlooks our harbor). Then I realized why...I feel liberated from the sadness of a confusing womb story because I've explored it and have no more questions and can put it in its rightful place now. (my healing entailed reclaiming & releasing an early triplet & quadruplet, in addition to the twin who died after birth)
On womb twin day I realized I am liberated...I am me...I am truly happy to be alive and live my life. With that, I thanked my twin and reassured her that I am now fine and don't need her assistance any more. I wished her well on her journey and resumed my own. We'll see if she does move on now. At least she knows I'm ok here without her now and that is my womb twin/birthday gift to us.
(I didn't feel a need to honor my triplet & quad on womb twin day because they were lost very early and the pain is resolved)
Today is the day my sweet 2 lb. Jennifer passed away many years ago and I no longer feel sad at all. I TRUST that all lined up just the way it was meant to and am enjoying LIBERTY from pain and loss. What a victory!
Happy Holidays to all you strong, courageous and undeniably special Womb Twin Survivors! I hope you had a meaningful Womb Twin Day and would love to hear about it...
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